where is the help..

Looking at the photo above, I had two option. Turning a blind eye or stop and stare. Obviously I chose stop and stare, hence the entry. I felt compelled to write my thoughts. The photograph shows a famine stricken child crawling on the ground towards a United Nation (in Sudan) food camp about a kilometre away while a vulture waits in the background? Gosh..my heart literally sank as I read that..

The photo was taken by a famous photographer named Kevin Carter. He committed suicide two months after taking this photo, due to a build up depression (seeing this photo only added major depression to his already problematic life). He was criticised after taking the photo, saying that he should have helped the girl, and exploited her suffering for his gain. hmm.. that made him more depressed i guess.. *instead of blaming him, why didnt the people do something about the situation in Sudan back then?* urgh.

I came across this photo in FB (thanks beth) and was drawn to it. It shows the severity of the state on where our world is at. sad? its devastating. This photo won the Pulitzer award. Hope it did more than that tho. I for one am changed.

How is it possible, that this little girl, has to go through what seems to most of us is just unimaginable to happen here. where is the help?

its just devastating. to see an innocent girl go through that. and its probably still happening right now..just not captured in a photo...where is the help?

the photo shows there is no hope for the girl. this tiny body represents millions and millions in this world.is it true there is no hope? where is the help?

God,

You are the God who provides.

You are the God that never fails.

You are the God who says "nothing is immpossible"

I pray for the current state that this world is at..

I pray that aid will come their way..

I pray that they will see the light that You offer.

I pray that they could see the hope that You bring..

Jesus, take over..

Jess

My field trip

It was merely 2 weeks after I got my job that I was sent to the 'utan'! hahaha! I was shocked but excited at the same time.. It was my first time being in Danum, and I took the opportunity to look around and see what is there..nda tau apa c david mau cubuk tu..ekeke..this is in DVFC (Danum Valley Field Cntre) where i stayed for 2 nites..


this is Sungai Malua..it was drought season and it was not that deep. But there were parts where it was deeper..time tu panas2..if only sia ada bawa baju,suda sia terjun tu..ahaha..nice cool water and scenery is just nice..
Now this is sungai segama...trees are everywhere..ehhee..siokkk..d sungai is deeper and more deras..so dis one kira d not so dalam part where i was standing..hehe
All these pics were taken when we were on our way to Borneo Raniforest Lodge..the lodge has won few Awards for its outstanding service..My attempt in BRL's canopy walk..isk..see how small i am compared to that huge menggaris tree??? i found out i am not very good with height la...cis.

The photos of BRL itslef nda payah la kasi masuk..byk sana website..heheheh..

My experience was great..i had fun meeting with the communities in (NUS-North Ulu Segama)

On this trip I was not lucky enough to nampak orang utan or elephants..hmm...but i did on my previous trip..hahaha..photos soon..

till then..
Jess

A new beginning!

My blog entries has not been stable *ever* which is pretty much like my life..But I have always believed in new beginnings for everything, and this is a new beginning for me..

2009 was a tough year for me. Looking back, and looking where I am at now? I have God to thank for everything. It gives me chills whenever I think about how powerful, amazing, great God is. When He says, "Nothing is impossible" He really means it.

I went through some rough patches last year, (career wise as well as relationship), but now life is all good. I am with a Chlo-Phleg guy who has been a friend of mine for the past 3 years. Who would have known? Haha.

1. I love to talk. He loves silence.

2. I love going out and having fun. He likes to stay home.

3. He's quiet. Im loud.

4. He's a thinker. I'm a feeler.(haha)

5. I'm spontaneous. He's a planner.

6. I start things. He finishes them.

7. Im emotional. He's composed.

8. He's laid back. I'm all over the place.

9. Dia kuat mungulu. sia nda.hahaha

bottom line. I am happy.
What we have in common? For one we both hold this verse strongly :
Matthew 6:33 "But seek ye first the kingdom of God, and his righteousness; and all these things shall be added unto you."

ok la..not gonna go all gushy on this entry. BTW (Thanks tuts, ko balik2 ckp pasal blog and it opened my heart to write again..ehhe)

Carreer wise.. Its amazing how my job is very much like my role in Lifeline. Heh. Jeremiah 29:11 comes to mind.. I waited for almost a year for my dream job, and I got it. When He says "I will never fail you" He really means it.. :)

I am blessed with a good job,a good family, a good guy, a good cousin who is with me every single day(u know who u are), good community, good friends. I am truly blessed.

God, words could not express how thankful I am. But You know what I mean when I simply say "Thank You".

forever thankful.
Jess

I will exalt You..

i like this song from Brooke Fraser..simply written, and yet it says all the right things..

I will exalt You
I will exalt You
I will exalt You
You are my God

My hiding place
My safe refuge
My treasure Lord you are
My friend and King
Anointed One
Most Holy

Because You’re with me
Because You’re with me
Because You’re with me
I will not fear

My hiding place
My safe refuge
My treasure Lord You are
My friend and King
Anointed One
Most Holy


In whatever I do.. I will exalt You...
and because You are with me..i will not fear...
Like the story of the 10 lepers who were healed, only one came back to give You praise..
I want to be that one..who will remember to always give You praise in whatever situation I'm in..
Because You're worthy..
It is in You that I find refuge..
Its amazing how You can be a friend..and yet a King at the same time..

Can God use u?

The next time you feel like GOD can't use you, just remember...

Noah was a drunk
Abraham was too old
Isaac was a daydreamer
Jacob was a liar
Leah was ugly
Joseph was abused
Moses had a stuttering problem
Gideon was afraid
Samson had long hair and was a womanizer
Rahab was a prostitute
Jeremiah and Timothy were too young
David had an affair and was a murderer
Elijah was suicidal
Isaiah preached naked
Jonah ran from God
Naomi was a widow
Job went bankrupt
John the Baptist ate bugs
Peter denied Christ
The Disciples fell asleep while praying
Martha worried about everything
The Samaritan woman was divorced, more than once
Zaccheus was too small
Paul was too religious
Timothy had an ulcer...AND
Lazarus was dead!


...no more excuses now. God can use you to your full potential.Besides you aren't the message, you are just the messenger

The Lord God is my Strength...

Got dis from www.abideinchrist.com

Indeed God is my strength!!

“We must interpret circumstances by God and not God by the circumstances,” wrote G. Campbell Morgan. “The peril of the hour is that men and women of faith may be trying to account for God by the circumstances of affliction.”

We see God in His activity. He has demonstrated His holiness, justice, and love at the cross. There is no reason why we should ever question His love because of the great manifestation of that love at Calvary. He sent His Son to die for us while we were yet sinners (Rom. 8:32). God does not change in His eternal attributes.

We are tempted in an hour of extreme difficulty to judge God by what we are experiencing. The reality of God’s eternal presence compels us to examine again the dark hour we experience from the standpoint of the eternal God (James 1:17; Mal. 3:6).

In his impressive dialogue with God, the Hebrew prophet Habakkuk asked hard questions that trouble the minds of men. What Habakkuk was questioning was much like what we see and experience in our day. Why do we have to witness the violence, iniquity, wickedness, destruction, and perverted justice, etc.?

The LORD God told Habakkuk, “I am doing something in your days – you would not believe it if you were told” (Habakkuk 1:5). God was using the circumstances to accomplish His eternal purposes. “I am raising up the Chaldeans” (v. 6).

When the Lord treads the winepress He forces us to live out what we are in the inner person. He forces us to reveal what we are on the inside. He will not allow us to say we are one thing and be something else in life.

Habakkuk learned from the terrible invasion of the Chaldeans to put his trust in the eternal God who sees the end from the beginning of all calamities. “Yet I will exalt in the LORD, I will rejoice in the God of my salvation” (3:18). That is seeing God above the circumstances.

When we see the circumstances through God’s eyes, we are transformed. “The LORD God is my strength, and He has made my feet like hind’s feet, and makes me walk on my high places” (v. 19).

Habakkuk was hiding in God’s power. The God of Jacob was his refuge. “His ways are everlasting” (3:6). The eternal principles have not changed.

May God give us discernment to see His hand in cruel circumstances. When we are overwhelmed by the present evil age, we are inclined to ask, “Why are You silent when the wicked swallowed up those more righteous than they?” (v. 13).

Do you have some cruel, wicked, violent Chaldeans invading your fortress today? The LORD God told the fretting prophet, “The righteous will live by faith” (2:4). That is the only way you can live in those circumstances.

But the critical question is in whom or what is the focus of your faith? “The LORD God is my strength” (3:19).

When we see the LORD God is the One in control of the circumstances we want to shout out with Isaiah: “Behold, God is my salvation, I will trust and not be afraid; for the Lord God is my strength and song, and He has become my salvation. Therefore you will joyously draw water from the springs of salvation. And in that day you will say, ‘Give thanks to the Lord, call on His name. Make known His deeds among the peoples; Make them remember that His name is exalted.’ Praise the Lord in song, for He has done excellent things; Let this be known throughout the earth” (Isaiah 12:2-5, NASB 1995).
Selah!

jassie's farewell and how i spent my bday!!

nothing much to say really...just that i am really blessed to have good company around me...it doesnt matter where the place is,but if you are surrounded by fun people,its really cool..kekek..

we were at Firefly, KK times Square, honestly, i didnt even know that place exist until jassie told me..lol. yeah..so lame.

the place is kinda small, but the band was quite cool..kinda amazed at the girl with the short hair singing 'listen' by beyonce..man she can sing! hehehe! i had the best time ever!!!

Yes..the nite started with me drinking this flaming thing..sorry dont remember the name..rainbow?or something...hahaha!thanks to jeremy..this really got me started..hahah..me screaming 'woohoo' all the freaking time..hahaha~!

from the left:ahboon,jeremy,noves,me and boby...hehehehe...

and this was me on stage drinking a shot of tequila..hahhaha! i was hesitating at first to go on stage, but after the flaming thing i was ready to do anything!lol..kidding..being on stage was uncomfortable..keke..lights were blinding,music was extra loud..i remember them screaming to my ears 'HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOUUUUUUUUUUU"!!and yes,after that shot of tequila another longer and louder 'wooohoooo' slipped my lips..eheheh..

me and noves..lovely nova..after her second drink she was dancing with me already..hehe..more like swaying to the music as house music is hard to dance to..kekke..whenever i see this picture it reminds me of how she stunned jeremy with her 'do you want to go in?' line...hahahahha!!luv u noves!hehehe..

last but not least..our dear jassie...its amazing that only when u're here will i be having 'extra' fun..heheheehe..love u babe..though u're in KL now, u must keep in touch..must!gonna miss u tons and tons..i know i can always count on u to be there for me..whenever i feel down,i know u're only a text away....i hope you'll continue to push thru in watever that may come ur way..do know that i will always be here for you..im only a text away too!hope to talk to you soon...will be reading ur blog to get updates..keep us updated thru ur blog k?hugs!!!

and lastly...again thanks everyone!!it was a nice birthday...couldnt ask for more...till then..i wanted to write more..but brain is not workin very well tonite..hehehe..till then!!!